Last Precious Months

     It's been a while since the last time I wrote a post. And alhamdulillah, it's Ramadan already now, the month I've always been waiting for. Anyway, remember the last time I said that staying in the student company was one of the best decisions I've ever made because I got to go abroad? No, I take my words back. Exactly a week ago I just found (or rather realized) that there is a bigger reason why I belong there :)

     As I recall, my first year in the company was not like what I had expected. I did get a lot of new worthy experiences I could never get anywhere else, but something was missing. Everytime we gathered together, I felt like there was a hiatus among us. Quite frankly, I didn't enjoy working with the people. We were too different, led by such (only we know) leader. I believe I wasn't the only one feeling that way, because some of my friends resigned in the second year. I would have done that too, if my mom and friends hadn't reminded me about what 'loyalty' and 'professionalism' really were. Of course I couldn't deny them and so I reluctantly agreed to stay for another year.

     My first six months in the second year wasn't very much different. Moreover because I didn't want to make time to gather with them, knowing the new members further (I barely knew who they were). Someday in the half-year holiday, there was a meeting at school. Feeling guilty, I forced myself to come, although I knew most of the new members wouldn't recognize me. I finally came and started to know them one by one. The more meetings I attended to, the further I learned about them. And the more I knew how close they were to each other. They were very.... unified. There was a kinship among them that I didn't feel when I was in their position. When they gathered they seemed to be happy, and always helped to each other whenever they had a problem. That's all what made them become able to hold such successful big events even without the help of ours; my batch. 

    I apologize for having not helped them much throughout the year. For not 'guiding' them in running the company. For disappearing when they needed us the most. Things had been difficult for us the past few weeks, and even with our absence they could still do it and together achieved what we couldn't the previous year. I am really really proud.

     I'm sorry for using this word, but I do envy them. They are too great. Too splendid. Solid. Because of them, I'm back. Because of them, we the 12th graders had a happy ending. They have what I didn't; sense of belonging. And they've just made me do, in the last days of my work period. Idon was right. Our batch may not have as many achievements as the 11th graders do, but our biggest achievement is to have them. 

     Sure, I still want to work with them together. But my time's over and it's time to move on. For all laughter we shared, for all tears we shed, for all 'secrets' we had, for the 'mission' we've planned, and for the incredible experiences given;  THANK YOU CEPOT'S! I LOVE YOU :)

*Never give up for Asia Pacific Student Company of The Year Competition 2013!!