Final Examination

All right, life keeps moving on, as months have turned into days, as days turned into hours and hours turned into minutes. And so it passed me by. The national final exams and school final exams have ended. It's been a rough way passing it, my hardwork in my Junior High School for 3 years just transformed into 10 scores that will appear in a certificate which will be out on June 20th.

I didn't feel that confident in filling those annoying computer answer sheets, and didn't think that the scores will finally come out like I've been hoping for. It's not bad though, but I'M NOT SURE, that's it. 

I swear it's pure my ability answering the questions, I didn't ask anyone, I didn't see anything. I did it all by myself. But some students didn’t and I’m telling the truth. Would you think it's fair enough getting worse scores than others whom I call poor-unconfident-cheating-students? I feel so sorry for them who were under pressure that they had to cheat, but I do feel sorry for myself too as if I can't get better scores than them! That hurts, but reality will never gonna change into lie.

At least now I need some relaxation after being full-memory-minded. But I can't, that's the problem! At least for a month, I will be given tests and tests and so on. If there's someone coming toward me offering a wish, an urgent wish, damn, I might waste it by asking for a student pity! lol, kidding.

Every third graders did them, do them, and will have to do them. Why should I complain then?

But then comes out a problem. You know what I am afraid of in facing practicum test?

It's that I don't understand in using physics stuffs especially those electricity things even I never understand about it at all! Oh Gosh, what am I supposed to do?

Yet there are still music, biology, reading poetry, and story stelling tests. 

No it's not over until there.

The next week I actually have to do bigger tests than the national final exam thing. Oh yeah, it's difficult to tell. The new students of High School test. Talking about it, really made me in a speechless condition. 

Just so you know, it's really deciding. I've been hardworking for three years, now I'm really really afraid if I couldn't make it. I just can't get over it. What I know is that I'm not really bad as long as I'm studying in my class. I even usually get into big ten, even twice in big five. But it's not convincing enough! Many things I will sacrifice if I fail the test. Some students follow the test just to try it, some just because of their parents' wish. But I follow it just because I wanna be there, I wanna study there. I'm not letting myself disappointing people just because of my failure. I must keep studying until everything's really over. Keep standing. Not even stumbling.